On The Inside

I just don't understand why everyone else can't understand.  They don't get that I'm finally doing something for me, that i want to do.  I'm always the one that will do anything to please other and hate when other people are upset.  But now I've decided I'm tired of it.  I tired of pleasing others while pissing off myself. I'm sick of being the girl that has to hide her pain, just to cheer up someone else.  And I'm tired of always worrying about how others feel before myself.  While I'm helping people become better, I'm destroying myself.  It's like no one knows who I really am inside.  That's somewhat because I don't let people in.  Why do i have to be that way, always hide my pain, what's inside, and who i really am, just to feel like people will like me?  No one has a clue who I am on the inside.  But that's all about to change.  I'll show them who I really am and what I'm made of!